my family is sleeping around me. yet i’m awake. i’m sitting on the warm comforter on my bed covered with a flower pattern, eating trailmix, and staring absentmindedly at the computer screen. i don’t even know if i have a soul right now. all i know is that it’s tough to feel very much this late at night. or in the morning I should say?
last night i spent the night at Mariah’s house. we went shopping today and i got extremely irritated by a woman at kohl’s that displayed such poor customer service and was so extremely rude that i was prompted to call the manger and complain for the first time in my life. it was that bad. on the plus side, i came home with two armfuls of bargain clothing mined from all over the town – thrift stores, department store sales, etc. looks like this girl will be fully-clothed at Cedarville!
then i went to bible study for the first time in forever. it was actually really awesome tonight. we talked about proverbs and the wisdom it encases. that solomon sure knew a lot. Proverbs 14:30 says: “A heart at peace gives life to the body, but envy rots the bones”. i envy way too much, and when i do, i realize too late that my soul is disappearing with my longing to be like someone else. i need to be content. i need to be at peace.